I am beginning to be known. If I myself offer
terms, so much cash down, so much a month, pledging my word for the
payment, the woman's lawyer will agree. She'll be glad to get the money in
that way, or in any way. But I must guard your reputation. I shall tell
plaintiff's counsel that you are my affianced wife, that I didn't know how
badly you were in debt--both statements are true--and that I assume
payment. I wish to assure you that, in thus asserting our old relation, I
shall not presume upon the liberty I am obliged to take."
I think I have treated John badly; yet he brought me help. And he had no
thought of recompense. Since he has seen how useless it was, he has ceased
to pester me with love making, but has been simply, kindly helpful. And I
have been so lonely, so harassed and tormented.
It was far enough from my thoughts to do such a thing, but as I stood
dumbly looking at him, it flashed upon me that here, after all, was the
man who had always loved me, always helped me, always respected me. I
almost loved him in return. Why not try to reward his devotion, and throw
my distracted self upon his protection?
"I would not have you tell a lie for me, John," said I uncertainly,
holding out my hands and smiling softly into his eyes.
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